Heading Home

I am heading home for a little visit soon. I am so excited. I love the farm so much. While I am there I am going to do a million things.

-play with my nieces and nephews
-say hi to the cows
-go on a canoeing trip with my sister
-help my parents in the garden
-eat and eat and eat
-jump on the trampoline
-swim in the pool
-pick food from the garden

I cannot wait to see my family. Family is the best. As my parents get older I value the time that I spend with them more and more. It's crazy to think that they won't always be there.

From the top:

-Scallops at christmas time
-Taco Fillings
-The kitchen at night
-My mom at farmers market
-My sweet sweet parents
-Laundry drying indoors
-Sink in the upstairs bathroom
-My parents bedroom
-Back of the house
-Trampoline!!!
-Greenhouse
-Barn
-Cows
-Compost pits 
-Milk in the fridge 
-Garlic from the garden 
-My parents record collection 
-Bathroom reads 
-Niece in the garden--photo credit Moriah Spicer 
-Just your average lunch at the farm--photo credit Moriah Spicer

Sisters

I was always the little sister asking why you won't play.

Just for today I get to be you:

Is this what you were thinking?

Dirty clothes

from playing in the dirt

marker smudged face

make believe is still your favorite game

I can no longer stand the sound of "lets pretend..."

you've asked me thousand times can we play make believe

Lets pretend that we're on the moon

no lets not

how about... "we're at the fair. ".... no.

Okay what do you think about cow boys.

I don't want to play make believe. I don't want to pretend anything.

Please. No. I'm to old to pretend things.

Spiderman?

no

Covered wagon?

no

we used to play that all the time.

So?

why don't you play anymore?

Stop talking, i'm trying to concentrate

please

nope

pretty please with butter and cheese

Please stop

Why did you have to grow up?

(No response)

Hey, I've got an idea, lets pretend that you are my age.

I don't want to. I've got home work to do, and I'm too old for this.

I'm busy and I do grown up things, like go shopping and go to parties with my friends.

This is what you said

and this is what I think.

you were imagining being somewhere else.

Somewhere without me, with your "friends"

well,

Imagining...

Pretending...

they are the same thing

You were pretending the whole time,

why didn't you let me play your game?

All I wanted to do was play make believe...

Change

Each day you use the same grease covered tea kettle and one day you realize that it is disgusting. So you try and change it. If you've been listening, we've learned a lot about change from our president this year. We've learned that change comes slowly, it doesn't happen over night. So in the mean time we hope and thats what gets us through. Jessie Jackson told us to "keep hope alive" and thats really all that we can do. Wait with hope in our hearts for the change our mind wants. But I think that our president is wrong, change can come over night. You go to sleep and it's bleak and grey, in the morning you wake to the white blanket of snow. Who says bigger is better, small change causes as much as big changes. Like your newly shinning tea kettle.

For The First Time

I've never Blogged before, but I have done quite a bit of journaling in my time. So I figure that blogging and journaling are along the same lines. One key difference is that the world can read my blog. The purpose of this blog is only for me. I'm not going to kid myself and think that my blog will change other peoples lives. But when I'm older, more mature, different, experienced, more educated, I will learn so much about who I was at 16. It could give me great insight, or maybe I'll just see how far I've come (or how far I have regressed.) Or my poor children may stumble upon this and wish that the internet was never created.